Just a few soft knocks at the same time can KO me already.

1. Stupid FCP, 2DD, DWF, POP, COMISS!!!! Dph still can tahan...

2. alida having problems, affecting me ):

3. Sis skin getting worse.

Thats all you know ! And i'm stressed out already.

In fact i should be less stressed these 3 days coz bro went for camp -.-

BUT NO, i'm even more stressed then i've been in the past month. I'm starting to imagine it's a monthly kind of thing -.- Not referring to the "girl's bestfriend" now. lol.

Now for elaboration on my sch related stress.

FCP: We have to do research on our "GOAL" for 3 weeks, and submitting the final illustration of our road from here to our "GOAL" in 2 weeks time. I dont know if i did enough. My FCP grade is already shit enough from my blunder earlier in the year. I think i got 0/20 for one assignment? coz i submitted at wrong place. Hope cher doesn't mark me late for finally sending the file to her months later...

2DD: Fuck pen tool. SERIOUSLY. How the hell to draw when all you can control is the line's gradient!!?!? due in 3 weeks. Using CS4 Illustrator, which i have bad memories of. Plus we HAVE to use the stupid pen tool. In full colour with shadows and highlights. Face contours have to be shown by using different shades of skin colour. Wtf? How the hell to finish ?

DWF: Our biggest drawing assignment ever.. And its HORRIBLE...... Well the biggest problem is the truck. It has quite a lot of small little details... I almost wanted to kidnap the toy home to slowly 研究. lol. 2 more weeks till submission. i think i'm gonna cheat and do some at home. Provided i find time.....

POP: Writing a game?! That is actually playable? God. -.- How the hell ? IDK HOW. SHIT. I totally dont know how to start complaining about this assignment. Coz i dont know how to start doing. -.-" EESH.

COMISS: ......... Conclusion test next week. Thats okay. Cyber crime presentation the week or next after. Shit. I hope wenlong comes! 3 ppl presenting a supposedly 5 ppl presentation is really killing me cs and zoe -.-

& Today the two thing that have been on my mind:

1. Morning, mummy keep telling me dear and connie have smth fishy going on, or else connie wont keep lending him car. I really dont believe her. I know there's nth at all between them. But i cant help thinking of it.. After all they are quite close and she's pretty ): sigh. cant bear to talk to dear about it....

2. Hwee fen asked me who was nicole. It was a little girl toddler of my dad's colleague's..... Dad took a photo of her and posted onto facebook.... HF just jokingly said that if it was his daughter, she'll be from another relationship... idk why but i kept thinking of this too. Sigh.. Wanted to tell HF about my parents, but din wan her to feel bad..... Then, because of her joke, i kept thinking of the past.. The once when i tot dad had a fiancée, and when i had a dream about him and another woman.... Just made me depressed thinking...

Just now at dinner, mom tried to get me to go back to church , along with sis .

I dno. Pastor is boring...... I really wna go. But his voice only makes me sleep....... -.-

Random: When i'm sad/emo,

Sky is best at supporting me. Of coz. Support from my most important person, will definitely help. Without my dearest, i would be so lost...

And nerd bro somehow always manages to make me laugh. Mostly coz he's so crappy and always talk random nonsense lol.

Give me something to look forward to...my life just suddenly feels so dead... the only thing i look forward to anymore is seeing alidie+amanda+hweefen at sch and spending the little precious time with my hubby... but alidie emo now, so affected everyone too.. sch wasn't fun today... Seeing ali really broke my heart. Dear was nice and comforted her, in my stead. Sigh.... And my hubby.. is so busy..... i cant do anything to help ): Except mentally cheer him on... Not even physically there.. My heart just breaks...

My best medicine for my tears and my support, comes from previous saved messages from my dearest hubby.. Ones where he cheers me on, and promises to be there when i'm down, to share half of my burden with me. Like i told bernard bro earlier, i think without these messages, i would have gone mad already.

I need you with me my baby..

XOXO